PART EIGHT: Feelings Show True...

Christine sat in the window sill thinking. She couldn’t tell Faith. She couldn’t tell her that she was the one to die. The potential told Willow not to tell the others. It took convincing but the redhead agreed and said she would tell the others that she had read it wrong. It would be better and easier that way. Everything was going to be discussed tomorrow. Willow said that she was going to research a little bit before going to bed.

Down the hall...

Willow crept into Dawn’s room as the young brunette was crawling into bed. “Sleeping here tonight?” Dawn asked getting in her bed. The redhead just nodded and sat by the desk in the corner of the room. “Well, don’t stay up too late,” Dawn stated, turning off her side lamp and going to bed. Willow turned on the desk lamp and set the accent books she found down. Tonight was going to be a long night for the redhead.

Back down the hall...

Kennedy stopped in front of the bedroom door wondering if she should even go in. Taking a deep breath, the potential turned the knob and walked in. Christine looked at her, walking in, and then looked back outside. Christine wondered just how long she had to live before the time came. The dirty blonde sighed and got up from where she sat and turned towards the other potential.

“Have you ever just...” the green eyed potential started then stopped looking to the side. Tears started to form in her eyes as she stood there. Kennedy’s heart ached as she hesitantly walked to the other girl and pulled her into a hug, trying to be comforting.

“Shhh...it’s ok, don’t cry.” The brunette said, lightly caressing her hair. Christine wrapped her arms around Kennedy falling into the warmth that she felt whenever the other girl was around. Christine pulled back a little and leaned her forehead against Kennedy’s. The other girl looked into Christine’s eyes, trying to search for what was wrong. But the other potential had been trained all her life how to hide such things. Christine knew that she should tell the other girl...tell her what she needed to know, what she wanted to say...for she probably wouldn’t get another chance...

The stairs...

Faith walked up the steps, tired from the day. Her mind was reeling about Buffy. The brunette slayer stopped in front of the older slayer’s door, nervous. Should she even say anything to her sister slayer?

“Faith...I can feel you. I know you’re there. Just come in,” came Buffy’s voice from the other side. The younger slayer felt stupid as she opened the door and avoided the blonde’s eyes as she closed it and entered the room. Finally, Faith met Buffy’s eyes, who was just sitting on her bed, doing nothing. The brunette sighed, kneeling down next to Buffy’s bed. She might as well just say it...

Willow’s room...

“I-I love you...” Christine whispered so low that Kennedy almost didn’t hear her. Christine NEVER said that word, let alone the phrase. But it was true...she actually loved Kennedy. She knew it, felt it, and cared deeply for the other potential. And she needed to tell her that.

Kennedy gazed into Christine’s eyes and smiled. “I love you too,” she answered, leaning in and capturing the other girl’s lips with her own. The brunette kissed Christine as soft as she could to show how much she did care about her. But Kennedy couldn’t shake this feeling that something was wrong...that something just wasn’t right.

In Dawn’s room...

Dawn was fast asleep as Willow sighed. The redhead was getting more information about the whole thing but the details on how it all flowed together were sketchy. There was a spell that she had to do to bestow slayer powers to all potentials...that she just found. But there was a certain time in which she had to do it...and that she wasn’t too sure of. There was also some amulet involved also.

The witch then got an idea as she reached and grabbed her cell phone, quickly dialing a number. It rang a few times, obviously due to how late it was, but Willow was surprised that it was picked up a little sooner then she thought.

“Hello, Angel Investigations, we help the helpless. This is Fred speaking...”

Buffy’s room...

“Buffy...I need to tell you something...” Faith started. The older slayer started to interrupt her but the brunette silenced her with her hand. “No...just let me talk. I’m never much for talking. Maybe it’s time I start...” the younger slayer stated, thinking about what she said. The other slayer closed her mouth realizing that Faith needed to do this.

“I’m not like everyone else Buffy. Yea yea, there is the whole we are slayers thing but that’s not what I mean. There is a lot about me that you don’t know...and a lot I hide. Back with the whole thing with Finch...I knew I screwed up. I seemed to do that a lot. No one wanted me and you and your scoobies were having a great time without me...and talking about me...” Faith started. Buffy started to open her mouth but closed it again. This was Faith’s time to talk. And the blonde’s heart broke. She could see the pain in the other girl’s eyes.

“I wanted you to like me so bad. I tried to be all cool and tough...but I was hurting and so lonely. I freaked when the whole thing with Finch happened...and how you...I just couldn’t deal...and I knew none of you cared. The mayor...he was the only person that cared. At first I was going to play double agent girl and show you that I was good for something...but...I don’t know. He gave me what you never did. And I was jealous of all the people around you. Mostly because...because I cared about you...loved you even... and you didn’t care to notice...I...” Faith was starting to lose her wording as well as her nerve and she looked away form Buffy ashamed. She NEVER used the big L word...but that was how she felt about the other girl...

Buffy wanted to do something, say something but then Faith started talking again. “I knew what I did was wrong...I just wanted to be loved and cared about so badly...God I was fucked up...And what I did to you....I never forgave myself. And you hating me was some kind of emotion that you would feel for me...I am so sorry...Then prison...I went for you. Because it was what you wanted...” Faith was saying. She knew she was jumbling everything. She looked up at the older slayer and noticed tears in her eyes.

“Wh...Why are you crying?” the brunette slayer asked puzzled. Buffy just reached down and pulled Faith to her placing a passionate kiss on her lips. The younger slayer was frozen and confused at first but then fell into the feeling of it and the heat. They were both in an awkward position and both girls sat up so that Faith could get herself fully on the bed and straddled the blonde’s legs as Buffy wrapped her arms around the brunette’s back pulling her closer as she continued to kiss her.

Buffy was so lost in the feel of Faith. She had been wanting to do this for a while now. She used to just push how she felt about the other slayer away but now...she wanted nothing more then to have her there with her. Faith pulled away a little and Buffy looked at her panicked a little. The younger slayer noticed and touched her face gingerly, running her fingertips over the blonde’s face.

“I don’t understand...” Faith whispered leaning her forehand against Buffy’s, wanting to kiss her again but afraid this was all a dream.

“I’m sorry Faith...I am so sorry,” the older slayer said tears starting to form again in her eyes. “It was so easy to push how I felt about you away. It was easy to hate you...that way I never had to admit how I felt...I...I always felt a connection but I just.....I love you...” Buffy said looking into Faith’s eyes. The brunette didn’t know what to say. It was all too much.

Buffy started to see the panic rising in Faith. “I know this is sudden on you but please don’t leave me. I need you Faith. Everyone always leaves me. I’ve got this big burden on my shoulders that’s slowly killing me and no one understands. I’m still just a girl. And I have become my duty, pushing everything aside. I want you with me. Please Faith...I need you,” Buffy desperately pleaded looking into the other girl’s eyes. Faith was at a loss for words. She opened her mouth then closed it again. So Faith gave Buffy an answer that she only knew how to at the moment and kissed her.

Faith slowly pulled away from Buffy, tears forming in her eyes. “What’s wrong?” Buffy asked. The brunette sadly smiled caressing Buffy’s face.

“The first day I saw you...I wanted you. But I knew...I knew it would never happen. That and at first your friends thought I was cool and I figured you would hate me. Then I...screwed up. I was so alone Buffy. I had no one. Then I tried to help with the mayor...but...” Faith was saying looking away. Buffy didn’t understand where Faith was going with all of this but she was listening.

Faith sat back a little bit away from Buffy. “When I woke up from my coma...they had placed me in the basement not caring. Everyone forgot about me...you forgot about me...” Faith said looking back at the blonde. The hurt and pain showed through her face and the older slayer felt horrible. She reached out to Faith but the brunette flinched and grabbed her hand holding it. “Let me get this out...” Faith said. “I woke up and was confused. I kept having these horrible dreams...you were after me. Kept saying how you ‘had things to do’ and stabbing me. I kept running but you would always find me. You kept telling me how worthless I was...” Faith struggled to say. A tear went down Buffy’s face. The brunette slayer knew that what she was saying was hurting her but she had to get it out.

“I came to find you. That poor girl I beat up...but I just wanted to get to you. You never once came to see me and didn’t even care till they called you. And it hurt to see you with that...that loser farm boy. But nothing hurt like when you told me that maybe the reason why everyone forgot me was because they wanted to...” Faith said.

“Faith...” Buffy said looking into her eyes. The brunette leaned foreword a bit placing her fingertips on the blonde’s cheek.

“I know I am hurting you by saying these things but...I had to tell you...I am so sorry Buffy when I switched bodies with you...I didn’t even know what the damn thing was...and when I saw you...me...I lost it. I hated myself and what I was and what I had become...and for hurting you. I was scared and ran. And...” Faith sighed not wanting to go on.

“I’m not going to go into it,” the brunette said, looking up leaning closer into Buffy, “But regardless how hurt I was and how fucked up I was...I wanted to do the right thing...because of you. You make me want to be a better person. And I never stopped thinking about you while I was at prison. I hated myself. I had no purpose....and I couldn’t kill myself...didn’t have the guts. That’s why I kept pressing you. I hoped you would end it for me. What I felt for you...scared me...I never felt anything like this before. And it scared me. But you were the reason why I kept going. I couldn’t do it for myself...so...I did it for you...” Faith ended looking into the blonde’s eyes.

The older slayer didn’t know what to say. Everything was just overwhelming at the moment. But she knew this was important to Faith. And she understood now where she was going with this.

“I love you Buffy. I’ve never loved anything more then I love you...but...if you were to leave me...break my heart...I don’t think I could take it,” Faith said looking at Buffy. The older slayer understood. The brunette was scared. This was her way of telling her how she felt. Buffy wrapped her arms around Faith’s waist and pulled her to her.

“I will never leave you Faith. I am so sorry that I have hurt you. I am so sorry that you were so painfully lonely. But you aren’t anymore now. I love you Faith. And I know you might think that you aren’t good enough to be with me...but you are.” Buffy said. Faith looked at her amazed. It was like the blonde knew exactly how she felt. Faith didn’t deserve Buffy. The blonde was all she ever wanted. Buffy smiled at Faith and pulled her face to hers, passionately kissing her as the brunette straddled her again.

Willow’s room...

Kennedy took Christine’s breath away. The brunette potential managed to get Christine to the bed with out realizing it. Kennedy fell back with the other potential on her lap. Christine had to stop kissing her; she was out of breath and buried her face in Kennedy’s neck. Soon, the potential could feel something wet on her neck. She realized that Christine was crying.

“Christine...what’s wrong?” Kennedy asked concerned. Christine didn’t want to lie to her...but had to. She was just feeling so alone...and there were all these things that she had been hiding for...for such a long time that she never told anyone. She had told Faith a lot of it but it was different with Faith. She was...she was her best friend...wow...the big bad Christine, who never believed in best friends...actually had one. Christine laughed a little at the thought. She was used to having a 100 thoughts at once going through her mind. Right now, everything was jumbled. The thoughts of her past that were thrown back in her mind, knowing she had to die, caring for Kennedy, everything.

Christine looked up at Kennedy and laughed a little at first. The brunette then looked hurt. “What’s so funny?” Kennedy questioned. Christine’s face changed to one of concern as she hesitantly reached out to cup Kennedy’s cheek, who leaned into it.

“You just looked so cute...confused and all...” Christine whispered, moving her thumb across the other potential’s cheek. Kennedy smiled but knew something was wrong. There was something that Christine wasn’t telling her. Kennedy reached up and grabbed the other girl’s hand.

“Tell me...what happened to you...” Kennedy asked looking into Christine’s eyes. She wanted the other girl to trust her. And she needed to know that she did too. She wanted to know Christine’s story so she could better understand and help her...to better be there for her. “I mean I saw some things...” Kennedy said.

Christine sprang from Kennedy. “What?” Christine asked. Kennedy sat up a little shocked at how Christine was acting.

“When...when Willow did the spell...” Kennedy tried to explain. Christine was panicking. She thought that only Faith saw some of those things....did Buffy see things...did Willow...she didn’t remember ever seeing Kennedy or the others besides Faith.

“I I I thought Faith...Faith was the only one...” Christine stammered. Kennedy started to get upset.

“Christine...I didn’t see everything...and it wasn’t like I wanted to see your memories!” Kennedy yelled. Christine held her head with her hands.

“You were not supposes to see those memories...” Christine whispered.

“Oh yea,” Kennedy said getting up, “I really didn’t want to see you kissing Faith either...” Christine stopped and looked up at Kennedy.

“Kennedy I...” Christine started. The other potential held up her hand. “You know...I just let it go...thought I saw it wrong. It was a moment of you needing someone right?” Kennedy asked.

“Kennedy, it didn’t mean anything...” Christine said sitting on the windowsill.

“That’s fine Christine...I understand. I even talked to Faith...but why Christine...why not just come to me?” Kennedy asked sitting back down on the bed a little hurt. Christine looked up at the brunette, understanding. Christine got up and walked towards the other girl, kneeling in front of her, and taking her hands.

“Kennedy, look at me...please,” Christine pleaded. Kennedy looked up at her. “I am sorry. I was scared...how I felt for you...I couldn’t...Kennedy...” Christine sighed. The other girl looked at Christine and shook her head.

“Look...I am sorry. I shouldn’t have said that,” Kennedy said looking away. She felt stupid. Christine rose and sat next to Kennedy taking her hand.

“No...it’s ok. I understand Kennedy,” Christine said turning the other girl’s face to face her. “I care about you, ok. I...love you. I never use that word. Faith is a friend. But she is not you. She’ll never be you. Because...because she doesn’t have the place in my heart that is reserved for you.” The other potential said taking Kennedy’s hand and placing it over her heart.

Kennedy looked up at Christine and lightly touched her face. “I...I just...care for you so much...and don’t want to lose you,” Kennedy explained. Christine lightly smiled.

“Many people have left me in my life Kennedy. I won’t ever do that to you...” Christine barley choked out. She couldn’t tell her...

Kennedy pulled Christine to her lightly kissing her. Every thought...every worry...was washed away as Christine wrapped her arms around the other potential.

Buffy’s room...

Buffy ran her fingertips up Faith’s back and let out a moan as the brunette kissed down her neck. “Are you sure you want to do this?” Faith whispered into the blonde’s ear. Buffy pulled Faith to her harder and wrapped her legs around her.

“Yes...stay with me tonight?” Buffy asked lifting the brunette’s face to her own. Faith stared into the older slayer’s eyes. She smiled and Buffy saw just how beautiful Faith really was. She was a little nervous and the brunette saw it. She lightly touched Buffy’s face.

“I’ll take care of you...always...” Faith whispered leaning down and capturing the other slayer’s lips. Buffy never felt anything like this before. The way Faith made her feel...it was unbelievable. She needed her...and needed her so badly at the moment. The older slayer pressed her hips into the brunette as she gently removed the younger’s shirt. Buffy had to feel Faith’s skin...she was just so beautiful.

Dawn’s room...

“Yeah...it’s good to hear your voice too,” Willow said as she leafed through the text again. What was wrong with her? She was getting and feeling all nervous and...weird. Fred lightly giggled at the other end of the phone.

“Hey! How’s Faith...I mean not that I wanted to change the subject or anything because I love talking to you but I was just wondering for she seemed a little afraid to go back and I was kind of worried for her and...” Fred was babbling. The redhead smiled. Fred was being so cute.

“Fred? Did anyone ever tell you that it’s cute when you babble?” Willow asked. Why the heck did she say that? The wicca could practically feel Fred blushing on the other side of the phone and Willow slapped her forehead.

“Well I uh...I mean you babble...you do babble too. And it’s cute when you do it...I mean...um...found it! I found the book Willow,” Fred said a little quickly. The shy brunette thought she was sounding stupid.

“Great! Oh and Faith’s doing fine. We did have some trouble but we are getting through it.” Willow explained as Fred looked through the book trying to find what the redhead was talking about.

“Fill me in while I look in the text.” Fred said leafing through the pages and reaching for the cup of coffee next to her.

Buffy’s room...

Faith and Buffy were lightly exploring each others body. Slowly taking each others clothes off with light kisses and whispered promises. Both girls sat up to feel each other closer. Buffy’s legs found themselves around the brunette again and Faith moaned, feeling the other girl’s wetness on her stomach. Buffy ran her fingertips down Faith’s shoulders, bringing her bra straps down with them.

The older slayer placed kisses down her shoulders as she slowly reached around the brunette and undid her bra, taking it gently off. Faith felt self conscious all of a sudden. She quickly covered her chest. Should she be doing this? Can she do this?

“Faith?” Buffy asked gently placing hair behind Faith’s ear.

“Buffy...I...I’ve never done this before...” Faith said looking into Buffy’s eyes. The blonde looked at Faith weird, not understanding. “I’ve never...made love before...” Faith concluded looking down. Buffy understood and cupped the brunette’s cheek making her look at her.

“That’s nothing to be ashamed of. I think it’s beautiful...you are beautiful,” Buffy explained looking into the other slayer’s eyes. “If you don’t want to do this...I understand...we don’t have to...” Buffy said lightly touching Faith on the face.

Faith hesitantly reached up and ran her fingers through the blonde’s hair lovingly. Buffy was so beautiful...so pure and true. The older slayer lightly closed her eyes at the sensation. Faith could make her feel so much in just one touch. Why did she wait this long to experience this?

Faith looked into Buffy’s eyes with so much care and love, with a little mix of fear, it moved the older slayer. She could feel just how much Faith loved her. “No...I’ve never made love before...and I don’t know what I am doing...and I am kind of scared...but...I will...with you...” the brunette lightly whispered. Buffy looked at Faith lovingly and drew her in and kissed her softly.

The younger slayer ran her fingers down Buffy’s back pulling her closer. She was afraid. Buffy smiled and kissed down Faith’s neck and collarbone. The brunette breathed heavily and stroked the older slayer’s hair. She couldn’t believe this was happening. Buffy kissed down to Faith’s chest, kissing in between her breasts, lightly touching them. The younger slayer moaned and arched her back as Buffy took a nipple into her mouth and sucked a little, also causing the brunette to shiver.

The blonde slayer reached up and ran her fingertips around Faith’s other nipple, stimulating it before switching and taking that nipple into her mouth. “Uh...B-Buffy...” Faith lightly moaned. The brunette’s hands were tangled in the blonde’s hair. Faith couldn’t even describe how she felt. She wanted to feel Buffy...love her.

Faith ran her fingers down and brought the other slayer up to her, kissing her passionately. The brunette switched her positions around so that she was straddling one of Buffy’s thighs so that her thigh was in between the blonde’s legs. The younger slayer pressed her thigh into Buffy bringing a moan to her lips. Buffy fluttered her eyes shut as Faith applied pressure to her core.

Faith reached around Buffy and undid her bra, letting it fall away. The older slayer helped remove it and tossed it aside. Buffy then pressed herself more into the brunette as Faith bent down, kissing down her neck. The younger slayer reached up and cupped Buffy’s breast lightly as she moaned and pressed harder into the brunette.

Faith could feel how aroused Buffy was through her underwear. The brunette captured one of Buffy’s nipples in her mouth. “Faith...” the other slayer moaned, tangling her fingers in the brunette’s dark tresses. Buffy could feel the heat rising between them. The sudden need to be closer became urgent. “F-Faith...please...” she begged.

Faith lightly laid the blonde down, crawling up her body to look into her eyes. “You ok?” she gently asked. Buffy nodded her head. “I love you,” Faith whispered before crawling back down the older slayer’s body.

Dawn’s room...

“Well that’s interesting...” Fred said as she found what she was looking for. “Hey! I found it.”

Willow smiled. She really liked Fred. She enjoyed being in LA when she called her. The redhead shook her head. What was she saying? She had to get back to the matter at hand.

“So you have the amulet?” the Wicca asked.

“Yup...got it right here,” Fred had replied. Willow thought for a moment.

“Fred?” she asked.

“Yes?” the shy brunette replied.

“I’ll need you here. Bring all your books and the amulet...that is I mean...if you want to come...I mean if you can...”

Buffy’s room...

Buffy arched her back as Faith’s tongue swirled around her clit. The blonde’s hips bucked as the younger slayer sucked harder on the other girl’s hotspot. Buffy’s mind was exploding. She could feel the pressure building with in her. Faith’s fingertips lightly grazed her thighs as she pushed Buffy’s legs farther apart.

The brunette’s tongue entered Buffy as her fingers massaged her clit. Faith couldn’t believe she was doing this. She wanted to show Buffy how much she loved her. The older slayer’s hips bucked again as she was getting closer to her release. The younger slayer held down the blonde’s hips as she moved back up to her clit.

“F-Faith...oh...please...” Buffy moaned. Faith wanted to see Buffy...look at her and see her as she came. The brunette crawled back up her body. “Faith...don’t stop...” Buffy pleaded as the younger slayer placed her thigh in between the blonde’s and pressed into her. Buffy bucked her hips into Faith as the brunette pressed her body more into her. Buffy’s arms went around Faith’s back holding and pulling her close.

“I’m not Buffy...Just hold on to me,” Faith said into Buffy’s ear as she pumped her thigh into the blonde, who pressed back into her. Buffy moaned and tossed her head to the side exposing her neck to Faith. The brunette made a trail of kisses down Buffy’s neck pressing harder into her.

Buffy was sliding everywhere on the brunette’s thigh as she continued to ride it. Faith leaned her forehead against the older slayer’s. “Buffy...look at me...” the brunette whispered as she began to glisten in sweat. All she cared about was pleasing the blonde. Buffy opened her eyes to find Faith’s chocolate brown eyes staring back at her. The older slayer’s breaths were getting shorter as she gazed into the younger slayer’s eyes.

Buffy wrapped her legs around Faith as the brunette continued to pump into her with it. The blonde was close. Buffy gasped as Faith leaned her lower body into her. The older slayer started to close her eyes again but Faith stopped her.

“Buffy...look at me,” Faith pleaded again. The blonde then came, bucking her hips widely. The brunette stilled her movements as Buffy came down from her high. Faith ran her fingers through Buffy’s hair and brushing it away from blonde’s face. The older slayer stared back at Faith as their eyes met. Buffy was now tired and the brunette could tell. Faith smiled and laid next to the blonde, pulling her into her arms.

Buffy placed her head on Faith’s shoulder, putting her own arm around her. She never felt like this before. She then looked up at Faith. “What about you? I... “Buffy started. Faith kissed her.

“It doesn’t matter Buffy. All that matters...is you,” the brunette said, kissing Buffy’s forehead. Buffy lightly smiled before falling asleep in Faith’s arms.

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