PART 10
Lunch. I haven’t seen her yet. Oh there, they are. Ah finally. She gives me that warm smile, the one that tells me she was as impatient to see me as I was to see her. Bren and Alex are on both sides of her. Maybe it’s better not to be too close anyway. I can’t seem to keep my hands to myself when I am around her. We need to act like just friends, we need to be just friends.
“Hey Buffy!”
“Hey Max, Logan, guys.”
“Hey, Buffy.”
“Oh, hey, I didn’t see you back there.” It’s Danny. Great, she keeps on smiling, she’s back to talking with Bren though. Yes, casual acting, that’s what we need to do.
Alright let's sit now.
“So, Buffy, how was your weekend?”
I like the half smile that slipped through her lips at the question.
“It was great.” Another smile, damn, I love those lips, oh, slight glance, makes me warm.
“What about you, Danny?”
“It was ok, I went to see my dad in Pittsburgh, I worked with him in his garage, I like that.”
“I don’t think my dad even knows how to change a tire. Ok, he probably knows, but you know what I mean, he’s not the mechanic type.”
“Mine taught me everything and I can assemble or disassemble any cars or motorcycles with my bare hands. I’ll probably take over once he retires.”
“It’s great, you have it all planned already.”
“Not totally, I’m doing fine at school and as you know I’d like to go to college and study, maybe become an engineer if I can.”
Damn, I turned down a future engineer; mom would kill me… If they know what I did instead, and… with who I did it…. They would kill me and maybe even hurt my dead body some more… if possible.
She’s looking at me, she knows what I’m thinking about; I can’t help smiling at her.
Lunch was good, we talked together, casually and with the others, it was nice.
“See you later!”
“Ok Bren!!”
Fine, just Logan, Max, Faith and I walking in the corridor now.
“What do you have now?”
“Math.” I sound so thrilled about it. “What about you guys?”
“Spanish.” Logan seems even less thrilled than I am. Faith seems ok with it, I know she likes Spanish.
“Gymnastic.” And gymnastic for Max, ok.
“So Faith, what about we head on and start to work on that translation?”
“Brendan’s there, meet you guys later.” That’s Max’s boyfriend. I so understand that she wants to spend the last ten minutes with him before starting the afternoon's classes.
“Well, I gotta go to the restroom first, I’ll meet you there, ok?”
“Ok, later, later Buffy.”
“See you.” Ok, Logan is gone too.
We keep walking, silently. She looked at me when she talked about the restrooms, I’m not sure though. I think she wants me to come. Or maybe I’m just imagining that she does just because I want to. Oh, and we’re already there. She just glanced at me, I’m not crazy, I know she did. Damn, can’t these girls chat somewhere else?
“So, math, huh?”
“Yes, I think I’d rather have Spanish right now.” Small talk. Great the girls are going away, she heads to the last cabin, I hope I wasn’t wrong, she’s going in, damn she’s really going in and ah, finally, she looks at me with that shy smile. Hurry, Buffy.
Ok, door closed and mmm, she caresses my cheeks, I love her sweetness. Let me touch you. Her skin is so soft. Hair now, I so like feeling her hair slip through my fingers. Oh good, she kisses my neck. I need her lips, I can’t wait anymore. Mmmm finally, I like to kiss her slowly like that, kissing her upper lip, again and again. I feel her tongue on my lower lip. She parts her mouth wider, she wants me in, and God knows how much I want that too. It’s warm, my tongue circling around her own, gently battling with hers. I love that more than everything… She pulls me backwards, I’m massaging her breast over her top, ok I admit, touching her breast is something I like a lot too. Yes, mmm, I feel her hand sliding down, oh yes, feels good the way she presses her thigh on my crotch. Damn did I just moan? I have to be quiet.
We’re at school, I should stop her, stop her from unzipping my pants, stop her hand from sliding in it. But it feels so good. She’s already inside my panties anyway and God knows I have no will now, impossible. Oh God. Oh, it’s so good. She kisses my neck and strokes me down there and it feels so good. She’s making me wet, so wet, I feel it, I feel my juices rushing. I feel her finger moving more and more easily between my labia, stroking my clit so well now. I feel like moaning but I restrain myself. I can’t help breathing that loud though. Oh yes. She’s going faster and… further down, I know what she wants, God, school, 14, oh God yes!
“Oh, Faith,”
“Ssss,” She whispers. Yes I know I have to keep it quiet but having her inside of me makes this very hard. She’s thrusting inside deeply and it gives me waves of heat each time. Mmm, oh, I won’t be able to keep it down if she speeds up the movement like that. I’m clutching at her back so hard now.
Damn! It gave me a jump; the bell’s ringing. Yes I know, me too; she’s looking at me disappointedly. Ok, we just pull apart. I was getting close. I don’t like that pulling apart thing.
“Well, too bad, I mean,” I’m blushing now.
“Yes.” She IS disappointed. Does she really like doing it. I’d like to touch her that way, I’ve been thinking about this, being inside of her, but I can’t do something like, I mean, I mustn’t, but I want to… so bad.
She’s cleaning her finger with toilet’s paper, feels weird to see my juices on her finger, kind of embarrassing actually.
“So, mister Head’s not here tonight, you’re off earlier then?”
“Yes.” That’s a very good thing about Mondays.
“Ok, I guess I’ll see you tomorrow then.”
“Yes, I guess.” Unfortunately, all that time will be such a waste.
“Ok, gotta go, Miss Leary is really strict on delay.”
“Yes, sure, better hurry.”
“Ok, see you later.”
“Faith, wait?” Caught her just before she opens the door.
“Yes?”
I couldn’t let her go without a last kiss, and she gladly returns it. I guess it was a good idea. Ok, time to part. She smiles at me though.
“See you tomorrow.”
“Yes, tomorrow, bye.”
She’s gone now. I have to clean myself, my panties are gonna be soaked otherwise, damn I’m so turned on. Anyway, maybe we’ll have more time tomorrow. What am I saying?! I thought we should stop. And why should we stop? I don’t even know. There are reasons, good reasons I know that. But I want to be with her so much right now, it’s all I can think about.
Can’t wait for it to be tomorrow.
We found a way to be together a little more quietly, we skipped lunch and went to that small movie theatre she knew, not far from the school, it plays some very old movies that almost no one wants to see any more and it’s very cheap. There were just three people, in the first rows. We sat in the back and I swear I didn’t get a single thing from the first half of the movie so much we were kissing. I felt her up and stroked her, I was almost about to penetrate her when this couple came in. We had to part because they sat not too far from us. They were from the high school, I’ve seen them before. They just came here for the same thing we did; only they didn’t have to worry to be seen groping and all. It was frustrating in some ways but, we ended up watching the rest of the movie caressing each other’s hands and forearms, and then just holding hands and it felt good…. So it was a good time. But then it was time to go back and here I am thinking about her instead of doing my homework. Dad is just beside me in the kitchen, I can’t imagine what he would say if he could read my thoughts right now. It wouldn’t be good, this I know…
I can’t focus today, we were together in the restroom today again, we kissed, I just didn’t want to let go of her, but I know we had too. She told me there was another movie at lunch time in the theatre tomorrow, so we’ll go I think. No I know we will. But I feel frustrated by this situation. If I’d agree to date Danny I wouldn’t be frustrated… But I would never feel the lightness I feel whenever she touches me, or even just, looks at me… This I know too. But I wish I was feeling this for him, it would be simpler… And probably less intense. I can’t really handle this right now. It’s too confusing, hence the fact I don’t stop it, I’m weak. It shouldn’t happen. I shouldn’t want to be with her that way so much, right? No, I know I shouldn’t.
I’m not so sure that theatre thing was a good thing, we got kinda caught today. 2 people we don’t know so it’s ok though. We were stroking each other and I guess, moaning, we got a little too caught up into each other. We chose to leave the place and we ended up eating on a bench, under the sun, but it was cool too. She told me about her Aunt’s new hair color, supposedly pink. Must be fun to watch, and she’s had two very good grades yesterday, she was proud which is a good thing I guess. It’s weird how we don’t talk about it. How we can easily switch from friends-talking to lov-, no, whatever it is we are when we’re alone together. Alone together, that’s a contradiction I know; I like the sound of it though.
I’m on my way back home right now.
“B?! Hey B?”
Hey, it’s my favorite skater girl. “Hey, Faith, what are you doing here?”
“Thought I’d tell you, I had my Aunt on the phone a minute ago and… well, I asked her and she said yes, so well, if you want to, I mean.”
Damn she’s babbling, it’s so cute. I guess my smile is a little mocking, she doesn’t seem to take offence though.
“What did you ask her?”
“Well, if you could come home, for a sleepover this weekend.”
“Oh, you did? And she DID?!” I look as happy as she does now.
“Yes, so, I wanted to catch you now, maybe you can ask your dad this evening if you can come home with me tomorrow after class.”
“Yes, I hope he will say yes.” We’re holding hands again, it’s like we can never help it.
“I hope he will.” She sounds so honest.
“I will convince him.” There are people around, hands to myself, I think she understands. I mean, I hope she does.
“So, you’ll just let me know, tomorrow ok?”
“I can call you tonight to tell you if you want?”
“Ok.”
“Good, later then.”
“Ok, cool, later, B.” I like to see her skate, I like the way she moves her legs, and the way her back, ok, stop these thoughts NOW. Time to go home. He will HAVE to agree. I can’t wait for it to be this weekend….
I’m so glad Daddy agreed. I can’t wait for tonight, I mean, this weekend, to have fun, with my friend, that’s what I mean.
I haven’t seen her today yet. We really have different scheduled and Friday’s the worse, we’re in complete different wings of the school ALL DAY LONG! Well, almost. I was hoping to run into her but it didn’t happen. She was with her class mates at lunch cause they have a test in History this afternoon. I thought I would let them study. I ate with some new friends I made in my class this week, Jason, Veronica and Steven. They’re cool; I could study with them for the exams.
I don’t know why I’m so impatient. It has to go smoothly, I mean, like a normal sleepover. I want so much to think like that but I know the truth. I’m dying to feel her skin against mine, to feel the warmth that emanated from us every time we were that close.
I can’t believe I don’t even have the will to stop these thoughts…
Ok, physics should put my ideas back in place… for a while…
She’s late, I hope she didn’t get herself another detention, where is she? I can’t believe how impatient I am right now. School’s been over for barely 10 minutes, not everyone is out yet. Oh there she is, oh- she’s talking with Danny, wonder what they’re saying.
They’re done. Finally. She comes to me, at last. Stop being so impatient and exclusive with her!!!!
“Hey B. Sorry, I was a little late to give my copy back after the test, you know me.”
Ok, is that all? She starts to walk. Hey? Hey?! What about Danny?
“You’re coming, B?” Huh?
“Err, yes.” I guess I won’t know then what is it they were talking about.
“You’re ok, Buffy?”
“Err, yes. Fine, why? What about you? What’s new?” She smiles, damn she likes making my mind run like that. She knows what I’m thinking about.
“Well, not much, I think I flunked the test but that’s not news.”
She definitely likes to play with my mind, wicked Faith.
“I’m sure you did well.”
“Yeah, whatever, I don’t care you already know that.”
“I know that’s what you keep telling everyone but I saw the look on your face when you received that B+ in Spanish the other day and the B in geography.”
“You need glasses, B.”
“Yeah, yeah.”
“Anyway, you’re ready for a wicked cool weekend. I’m gonna show you some fun stuff to do around, if you have balls.”
“And I need glasses? Neither one of us does, Faith.”
“Yeah, with the way you chased those guys the other night, I say you do. As for me… I always have balls when it comes to doing naughty things…” she winked at me. Ok, Faith,
“Naughty things?”
She took my hand, her gaze is so intense.
“Yes, B. Naughty things… You’re gonna love it all.”
Oh my God she’s so close to me. It almost feels like she’s gonna kiss me. God there are people all around. Thank God she pulls away a little, her face was so close to mine. She winks at me again and why do I have the feeling the whole situation just slipped through my fingers right now? If she takes charge now, no way I’m gonna resist.
