PART 17

Faith froze on her door step as she saw the blonde girl sitting on the last step of the stairs of the motel's porch.

Buffy turned around while getting up when she heard the door.

Her eyes, still gleamy from the crying, showed her expectations and anxiousness... She looked at the letter in Faith's hand and Faith hid it as a reflex. She felt weird. Now that she was here, in front of Buffy, she didn't know what it was she wanted to say. And she felt speechless as Buffy was standing in front of her. She'd felt the urge to get up and run to her but she hadn't expected her to be here and now she didn't know what she wanted to say, what she felt... Emotions swirled too fast in her mind and heart.

Buffy could read these hesitations and the surprise on Faith's face and she gave her a slight smile,

“Where else could I go...” she walked one step, “but where you are.”

Faith inhaled deeply. Buffy walked another step. Faith tried to look away from her but she couldn't. She could feel her heart clench in her chest. She was holding her breath.

Buffy kept staring at her intensely while walking closer. Faith exhaled and closed her eyes as she felt Buffy's hand on her face. Buffy inhaled deeply while gently brushing her fingertips on the brunette’s skin. She was touching her as if touching precious crystal, highly breakable.

She gently caressed her cheek and the whole side of her face.

She moved completely in front of her... “I'm gonna tell everyone how wonderful, how beautiful you are. I'm gonna tell the whole wild world how I feel about you. Starting by my mom. I'm gonna get you out of this crappy motel room and into our house... I'm going to do that as soon as I've done the most important thing...”

Faith opened her eyes as Buffy took her face in her hands and stared at her, “I'm gonna tell YOU,”

She caressed her face and gently moved forward to give her a soft kiss. Faith closed her eyes again and they both shivered at the feeling of the other's breath on their faces.

Buffy waited till Faith opened her eyes again. She could still see confusion in them. She smiled at her, “I love you, Faith Lehane.”

Faith exhaled almost in a choke at the feelings she could see in Buffy's eyes, hear in her voice, feel in her touch just like she felt them in her words.

“I love you.” Buffy repeated as she leaned forward and pressed her lips on the brunette's once again.

Faith couldn’t think properly, she just let her body respond. Her hands moved to Buffy's face and she moaned at the contact of Buffy's skin under her fingertips. She felt Buffy's tear on her jaw and her lips parted as the kiss deepened. Buffy moaned too.

##I have never felt so good in my entire life. I've never felt so found. I've never felt so right. I've never felt so complete but in her arms right now... I will never ever let her go... Never. ##

Faith felt Buffy's grasp tightened on her nape and face and she moaned some more, feeling herself pulled even closer to the blonde slayer.

The kiss lasted for a long while and they heard whistles. Faith pulled away but Buffy didn't even bother looking backward at the boys who just whistled and applauded... Boys...

Faith looked at her.

“The whole while world...” Buffy repeated, proving she didn't fear people’s reactions anymore.

She gently moved forward, making Faith walk backwards into her motel’s room.

“But you first...” She whispered sensually and truthfully, staring straight at Faith who had to take a deeper breath again.

She couldn't process the thoughts, the feelings; she knew part of her would scream no, to not listen to this but her deeper self knew, it knew in its core that Buffy was sincere. She was true...

And Faith didn't want her to be wrong. She wanted to be with her as much as Buffy did. She knew she'd never felt like she was anything but when she'd been with Buffy...

She knew she'd come here because she was all that was her life... The only good thing came from Buffy.... The only thing she'd ever loved and that ever loved her back...

The hurt, the insecurities, the hesitations didn't matter anymore as she reckoned Buffy's words. What mattered was them, together now. And she very much wanted that second chance too.

Faith's calves reached the side of the bed. She then swapped position and turned Buffy around to lay her on her back on the mattress and she kissed her, moving partly on top of her. Buffy moaned.

##God how I've missed her warmth. This warmth is just perfect. She's just perfect. We're just perfect. I can absolutely never let her go. Nothing or no one is worth losing the love of my life. I will never make that mistake again cause she IS the love of my life. Always has been.##

Buffy switched position in her turn, surprising Faith a little though the brunette didn't think too much about it as Buffy crushed her lips against hers in a passionate kiss.

Then she pulled away and stared at the brunette slayer for a long while. She was just caressing her face while staring at her with a gentle, amazed gaze. Faith slightly swallowed under the intensity of Buffy's gaze and the closeness of that instant. It reminded her so much of their first weeks together in New York when she'd fallen so entirely for her, leaving herself opened and how she'd opened herself, how Buffy had helped her getting over her past trauma, how she'd felt safe again in her arms. How she'd never felt good after that without her. How *this* led her to hurt, so much. Faith shook her head and pulled the blonde girl into a kiss to break these memories. She wasn't in New York anymore; she wasn't vulnerable anymore as she told herself, and she intended on staying like that. She wanted to keep that control she'd had on her life. She tried to switch position again but Buffy blocked her on her back and caressed her face again. She gave her a soft kiss on the lips.

“I'm sorry Faith,” she whispered, “but I'm gonna do it again.”

Faith slightly frowned though Buffy's look was still very tender and loving.

“I'm gonna get to you again. I'm gonna make these barriers you've created once again fall completely.”

Faith closed her eyes and held her breath. Buffy gently caressed her wrists as the brunette's arms slightly tensed when she’d tried to switch position again, like a reflex.

Faith opened her eyes again.

“I'm gonna do that to you again. But you won't have to regret it this time. It's gonna be all worth it cause I'll never let you down again. I'll never let you hurt again.”

Buffy kissed her as she saw a tear fall from Faith's eyes, and she pulled away again. Faith had to take deeper breaths to calm herself down from the emotions invading her.

“I love you, Buffy.” She finally surrendered to any little voice telling her to shut her out and run away.

She couldn't. It was Buffy. It was the one. The one for her.

Buffy inhaled deeply and she had teary eyes. Faith smiled at her,

“God you're so beautiful.”

Buffy smiled and moved her face closer to kiss her. Faith pulled her closer and parted her legs as Buffy moved completely on top of her.

They both moaned as the blonde girl pressed her pelvis on Faith's crotch.

She clutched at Buffy's shirt and touched every piece of skin from the blonde’s nape that she could.

She needed to feel her warm skin, her warmth. Buffy slightly pulled away enough for them both to remove her shirt and she kissed Faith again and moaned as she felt the brunette's hand on her breast, massaging it.

Buffy kissed her neck, she ran her tongue all along Faith's neck. Faith shivered and her nipples hardened both at the feeling of goodness surrounding her and at Buffy's hand on her waist, slowly moving up under her top.

“I love you.”

Buffy moaned at Faith's words and she pulled away to look at her once again.

“I am so lucky to have you here. I am so...” Buffy trailed off as tears started to fall again at the emotions, the thoughts of their separation and the fate of their reunion. Lucky couldn't even describe how she felt right now, with Faith in her arms.

Faith caressed her face and gave her a wicked grin, “I know I'm really hot in bed.”

Buffy slightly laughed and they stared at each other more seriously.

“I love you.” Buffy whispered and Faith pulled her face closer into a long and deep kiss.

Buffy's left hand was on Faith's bra under her top while the other was in Faith's hair and the brunette's hands were all over Buffy's back and shoulders.

She unclasped Buffy's bra but then the blonde slayer pulled away with a slight frown. Faith swallowed.

Buffy gave her a reassuring smile but then looked around at the room.

She turned her attention back to Faith again with a gentle, still reassuring smile. She caressed her face.

“Not here.” She whispered.

Faith slightly looked around at the dull room.

“Err yes I guess you...” Faith slightly looked aside as she thought of the several nameless men she'd brought here, she then looked at her bag on the floor, she’d checked out already, “I guess maybe I can ask for another room for today. I understand that you-”

“Hey no.” Buffy told her as she gently made her look at her again.

“Don't ever think what you’re thinking right now. You are just so beautiful, in every way. And it's just that... you're a queen. My beauty queen and you deserve better than a motel room.”

Faith frowned, “Hotel? Not that I mind but I'm kinda tight.”

Buffy slightly laughed again and caressed her face once again.

“You deserve to be cherished, to be loved and filled like you do when you're found. Like I do now. Like.... home.”

Faith swallowed.

“Would you come home... with me? To me?” Buffy swallowed too at the meaning that carried this sentence to her and mostly, the expectation for Faith's reply.

“I kinda missed a lot of classes but I believe the word is pleonasm, Buffy; I am home right now, in your arms.”

They gave each other an intense gaze and kissed once again before pulling away.

Buffy was still staring expectantly at her.

“Yes, I'd very much like this, Buffy.”

Buffy felt her tears falling again and Faith wiped them all.

The brunette slayer hooked Buffy's bra again with a sigh.

“This isn't fair.”

Buffy chuckled as she sat on the bed to put her shirt back on.

“Don't worry; mom is out of town till tomorrow evening. We'll have plenty of time to.... make up for this.”

“I will remind you of that later B.”

“I count on you.” Buffy told her with a wink and she got up. She stared at Faith who was still sitting on the bed and staring at her.

Buffy picked up Faith's bag from the floor and hesitantly held out her hand.

“You're... coming?”

Faith could still hear apprehension of a negative answer in Buffy’s voice.

She took her hand and squeezed it as she got up, standing right in front of Buffy.

“What else could I do,” she whispered, “but follow you... always.”

Buffy smiled and pulled her face closer into a kiss and took her in her arms into a tight hug that Faith returned, holding her as tight as she could.

They slightly pulled away. Buffy took a deep breath as she stared at Faith; the brunette exhaled too. Buffy ran her hand through Faith's hair then caressed the side of her face as she whispered, “Finally... Let's go back.“

Faith brushed her fingertips on the blonde slayer's lips and then her cheek, “No, let's go further... and make it even better.“

Buffy smiled and moved forward until their lips touched...

The End