PART 12
Alright, putting my nightdress on then, I admit I kind of have… a certain desire in me right now, but I guess it wasn’t mutual this morning, it’s ok though. But I admit that this morning kiss just appealed more to me, or maybe I’m just a slut, all I can think about is touching her, what’s wrong with me? Ok and now I’m having a nasty idea, mmm wicked nasty.
Am I really myself? I’m not sure. This town has changed me, there’s something in the air, it can’t possibly be me stepping inside the bathroom now, checking her out, like really checking her out, she didn’t close the shower curtain. Can’t be me getting rid of my nightdress. Can’t be me wanting her so bad right now. What does that even mean: 'I want her'? But I know I do, whatever it means I do want her. I think it’s even worse, I don’t want her; I want to take her. I want to see her come like she did on top of me last night. The look on her face as she…surrendered to the pleasure. To me. It seemed like an insane joy of mine than to delight myself with this; it felt like power, like she gave me power on her, like I had power on her, it had only felt like that when I slayed in LA. When I felt the power I had on the vamps. It felt like this last night, but only stronger. I used to tell myself feeling this was unhealthy so what about what I’m feeling right now?
“Buffy?” Oops, she caught me looking at her. She doesn’t seem too surprised though, I like this, she holds out her hand invitingly. I love when she reads my mind like that; no questions, no arguments, she knows what I want and she wants it too.
Mmm the warm water, I love that feeling, I’m under the water jet. I want you, Faith. God, I’m moving forward towards her, slowly moving her to the wall. There she is, can’t move backwards anymore. Give me your lips, give me your tongue, mmm yes. Water and saliva, she always tastes so good. I can feel her hand eagerly touching every inch of skin she meets, my breasts; I think she likes my nipples very much. Or maybe it’s them liking her very much; they harden so fast at her slightest touch. Mmm yes, she’s stroking me down there with her other hand, yes it’s good. But I wanna take charge. I want to make her come. I want to see that again.
She slightly frowned at my hand removing hers but now she’s just moaning at my thigh pressing on her crotch. Yes Faithy, just put your hands around my shoulders. I need her, I need her more.
She doesn’t seem too sure about what I’m doing and actually, I don’t exactly know myself but my body seems to know so I’m gonna trust myself on this one. I just placed myself in between her legs, spreading hers and I’m lifting her left leg now. Oh God yes, I feel her more. She’s moving her pelvis forward the best she can to get more contact too. God I can’t help it.
“Buffy, what're you doing? Oh God!”
Now she looks at me with surprise.
“How do you do that?”
“I’m stronger than I look like?” I know I have to hide who I am and the strength I have but I needed to feel her, and carrying her that way, her legs wrapped around my back and seeing her rubbing herself on my pelvis like that. It’s so amazing. ‘I’m stronger than I look like’, I know it’s all I could find to explain that I’m carrying her like she’s a feather. But seeing the waves of pleasure on her face, wherever this strength comes from, I don’t think she minds now.
“God, Buffy,”
I can’t help but pressing her harder against the wall, she’s moving herself so hard on me too; her juices are even spread on my stomach. I love that she loves it. She gasped again, I know but I can’t help it, the louder she groans, the harder I press. Ok stop pretending Buffy, you can easily hold her with just one hand, I know what I wanna do with the other, I had a taste of it last night and God knows I want more.
“B!” She dug her nails so deep in my back at the feeling. My finger slid so easily inside her with the movement of my pelvis against her. And I can’t help it, her groans are driving me mad, mad with desire.
“Oh God, Buffy! God yes,” My God she’s impaling herself so hard on my finger I’m not too sure who’s ‘leading’ the rhythm now. Ok, there it’s me, God I can’t control myself, it’s like I’m thrusting all of myself inside of her.
“God!” Oh my God what did I do? I slid another finger. She clutches at my back so tightly. I can’t believe I’m thrusting inside of her like that. God she’s crying out now, I feel her legs tighten their grip.
“Buffy!”
My God she squeezes me. Oh there again, yes, yes, oh God I feel her walls tighten, clenching around my fingers. She’s breathing so loudly. I’m not moving my fingers anymore. I simply kiss her neck. She’s becoming limp under me now. She came so hard. I can’t believe she cried out. I love that, it’s so insane, it made me slam her so hard against the wall and my finger pushed so deep inside of her at her cry and that was the final touch to make her come. I find that twisted but I love that so much. What have I become?
Placing a slight kiss on her lips right now. Don’t wanna think about the rest
I’m looking at her chest rising, she’s still breathing so loud. I don’t dare to look at her right now. I hope I haven’t hurt her.
“Wow, that was, well, special,”
God, I hope she’s not mad or worse. Special? What does that mean? Ok, maybe I could withdraw my fingers from her that would be better for a start. I’m letting her down on her feet slightly now, she doesn’t remove her arms from around my shoulders at least, not a bad sign, huh?
“Buffy, what’s wrong?”
“Me? Nothing I- You, I mean, are you alright? I mean, I didn’t mean to be so-“ Damn I can’t even look at her.
“No I’m fine Buffy don’t worry, that was just, well, unexpected, but it was good, it was, wow, how did you do that, I mean, you’re so strong?”
What can I say now? “I know. I’m sorry, are you sure I didn’t hurt you?”
“No, why are you sorry? I do admit it was somehow more how I was expecting to do it with boys the way I told you about the other night but- hey, don’t look sad, I didn’t say that to make you feel bad cause honestly, I don’t. And I think I’ve been vocal enough to let you know I enjoyed it, right?”
I admit she’s right. Oh and about it, I so hope her Aunt wasn’t in the house anymore cause the whole building must’ve heard her. I shouldn’t be smiling right now but she really came hard.
“I like that better,”
What? Oh, I guess she's speaking about my smile. Well, wanna know what I like better… Mmm yes, this, circling her tongue with mine and the way she grabs my lips. I love the way we kiss. I love her kisses.
Fine, now I’m really not so sure she was glad about this morning’s session cause, here I am, standing on the pavement, I’ve got food, drinks and- no Faith…?!... She just let me here with no explanation. Ok, let’s rationalize Buffy. She told you to go get some food, mustn’t be for nothing, right? How long did I stay in there, 5, 6, ok maybe ten minutes, no, not even, she can’t be gone, she can’t be that far, right?
I’m sure I went too hard on her in the bathroom, that’s the only way to explain she left me and no! Don’t say that. She did not, she must have, I don’t know, wanted to pee maybe, or maybe she forgot something at home, but she would’ve told me, right? I can’t believe I’m panicking. I can’t, I can’t, be -not- with her. I know, I know, that’s not English but I can’t say it the right way cause it sounds too… can’t say that one either. She’s my friend, my close friend, that’s all. And we’re just… We were just… lonely I guess and maybe, experimenting, yes, that’s the word, that’s what we’re doing. They say kids have these phases, it’s totally normal… But I can’t believe she left me here, what am I gonna do without h-
“Hey B! Can I get you somewhere?”
Oh my! What did she do?
“Faith?”
“Yes, that’s me, come on in B. I got a surprise for ya.”
Well, this rather looks like trouble to me.
“Come on, what are you waiting for?”
“Faith? You do know you’re in a car, right?” She nods. “And you’re behind the wheel,” She keeps on nodding like nothing’s wrong, “What the Hell is wrong with you?”
“Come on, get in, I’ll explain.”
I’m not getting in and no, that’s cheating, no, she’s pouting now, damn this gaze.
“B.” Dammit she takes that husky tone, cheater.
“Ok, but just because there are people around, but you owe me an explanation.”
“You’ll have it, girlfriend.”
Girlfriend. Makes me feel awkward. Oh my, what a start, she’s gonna kill us if she drives like that but, no, she seems to know what she’s doing. If my dad learns about this, I’m dead.
“So now, what - why, what’s going on?”
“I’m taking you somewhere?”
“And, don’t buses go to that somewhere.”
“No, it’s faster this way.”
“So you drive a car, without license, because it’s faster huh?”
“Exactly.” Damn she nods, why does it make me horny when she smiles that wicked smile of hers? What did I just say? No I’m not horny, not at all.
“By the way, whose car is it? Your Aunt's?”
What? What did I say? “Ok, what’s so funny, Faith?”
“Come on B. That’s a BMW 530. Sarah would have to work at least three lifetimes to buy a car like this one.”
Something’s really wrong here. “Then, whose car is it?” And by her smile I already don’t like the answer.
“Dunno, some dude left it open.”
“What?! You mean, you stole it?!”
“Nah, I just borrowed it, and that will teach him to park on a disabled parking place.”
“I can’t believe you did this? We have to get out of this car, fast.”
“Come on, relax, we’re just getting out of New York, I’m taking you somewhere cool, you’ll see. And I have a surprise for you.”
“No, no it’s not cool, Faith. Do you have any idea of what will happen if we get caught? What kind of surprise?” Ok I’m such a loser. Yeah yeah, she can smile at me, she just bought my silence.
“How come the guy didn’t lock a car like this one anyway?”
“Because he was just getting to the ATM across the street, they always do that with their big cars, they park on this one place cause they don’t wanna turn around to find a place just to get some cash, so they park here, you just have to wait, they do that everyday. Since there are cops all around, well, sometimes, they let their warning light and the door open as if to say ‘I’m here, I’m leaving’. If it’s a day without a cop around you just have to get in, twist a couple of wires and that’s party time.”
I’m stunned right now.
“You do that a lot as I see.”
“No, did it a couple of times with some buds, nothing bad, Buffy. We just take a car, go out of town for some rave party or such and we let the car somewhere in town, it’s no big deal. They have money, we don’t break anything, steal anything from the car. It’s just… borrowing.”
“Borrowing. Yes.” Borrowing. I can’t believe I’m in a stolen car. What is wrong with me? What am I doing here?
“Don’t worry, B. Once you’ll get your surprise you won’t even think about it.”
I’m so lost. Why do I love the way she speaks to me, the way she looks at me and smiles at me so much?
I’m lost.
There are such beautiful, quiet places right beside New York City’s restless swirl. It’s awesome. Wonder where she’s taking me.
Oh, we’re leaving the road now.
“Are you ok, Buffy?”
“Yes, well, not much with the stolen car thing I admit.”
“Ok I promise I won’t do it again. I promise you no one will catch us here.”
“Where are we?” Oh it’s really small roads now, wonder how good the BMW will look when we ‘give it back’.
“It’s near a very small creek. I’ll show you, we’re gonna have a picnic there, there is a small waterfall, it’s kinda neat.”
“Picnic, that’s a good surprise I admit, but we could’ve taken bikes you know.”
“No.”
“Come on, you’re usually not lazy.”
“Didn’t say no for that. Said no for the ‘surprise part’.”
There she parks. Ok, and what did she mean?
“Do you mean this is not the surprise?”
“Nope.”
My God she gives me shivers just by the way she’s looking at me now. I don’t dare to ask. Ok, I do cause the suspense’s killing me.
“Ok, what is it then?”
“Well, I’ve been thinking about something for a while now.”
What is she doing, she moved to the back seat, she’s trying to, I don’t know… “What are you doing, Faith?” Oh, ok, she just tipped up the back seat. Oh, I guess this means… Are we gonna do it… here, in a stolen car? That’s what she was thinking about? I guess it is since she’s holding out her hand for me to join her. Can’t say I don’t want to.
Good thing these cars are pretty spacious. Mmm yes, kissing her, I’ve missed this, I always miss this.
“I’ve got something special for you, Buffy.”
