PART 22
“So, do you like it?”
“I must say it’s quite a beautiful town. High buildings too but not that many and not that high… And it seems cleaner.”
“Just a little.” She smiles. I guess I haven’t seen much of it. But yeah, I kinda like this town. And the road bridges to enter the town, wow, pretty big and neat.
“Where are we going now?”
“We’ll head north by bus and I’ll show you the quarry.”
“But err, it’s almost 5. I mean, sun is almost set already.”
“Don’t worry, we’ll be fine. There are quite a few buses back till at least 9.”
“It’s just,”
“What?”
“I don’t know, where are we? I mean, do we stay at… your mom’s or,”
“Yeah, right.”
I knew I shouldn’t have even mentioned her, but hey! I’d like to know where we’ll be sleeping tonight. As much as I like her I’m not sleeping under a bridge… Ok, I highly doubt this is her plan. Because she DOES have a plan I know that… I’m just a little anxious about her plans now…
“I was just wondering, you know.”
“Yeah. Well, no, we ain’t staying at that bitch’s. I still have good friends here. I called Andrew, he’s an ex of my mother actually, but he’s one of THE only nice ones she had. He owns a shop. Closes late, he used to live in the back of it, so there’s a bed and fridge and stuff. He moved in with his new girlfriend this year so he told me we could spend the night there. You’ll see, it’ll be cool. I’m sure you will like it there.”
“Alright, what was that smile for?” She gave me such a wicked smile, I’m wondering.
“You’ll see.”
She’s holding back a laugh, there?! Now I really wonder what she’s got in mind. Can’t be good, can it?
“A sex shop?!” I can’t believe she’s even laughing.
“What? That’s a store like… any other store.”
“I really don’t think so missy,”
“Come on, it’ll be fun.”
God, I can’t spend the night in a sex shop.
“Faith?”
“Don’t be such a kill joy. We’re getting in by the back door and we’ll stay in the back anyway. We don’t even have to see anything. Come on, we’re only spending the night here and first thing tomorrow, we’re gone.”
“I guess I don’t have a choice.”
“I guess you don’t.”
“You really like that, don’t you?”
That was some wicked nod. I can’t resist her. How can she make me do things like that? And with a smile even? She’s killing me. Both literally and figuratively cause if daddy learns about that whole trip, she’ll spend the rest of her life picking up the pieces of me on the floor.
“Let’s get in.”
“Where is he?”
“Oh, he’s not here. He told me he would close at eight today, but I know where he hides the key, he told me.”
“Ok,”
“Don’t look around like that, B. Nobody cares who goes inside sex shops anymore.”
I’d like to be sure of that. Damn, she’s in. I didn’t even see where she picked up the key.
“So? You’re coming in or you wanna freeze outside tonight?”
Would it be that bad? I’m dead anyway… Ok stop that Buffy. There’s no reason why he should find out that I lied to him, blew classes, took the train, slept in a stranger’s sexshopy house? No way he’s ever gonna find out, right?
Can I panic now or should I wait?
Alright let’s walk in… Oh. My. God. Now I can panic. And that makes her laugh! She’s surprised too though.
“Wow, B. I’m sorry. The place changed since I left.”
You can say that…
“I guess, since he doesn’t live here anymore, he stocked some merchandises in there instead… No TV anymore but hey, bed’s still here.
“Bed? You mean the thing on which lays dildos, handcuffs, a dozen boxes of sex dolls, and 2 boxes of… what is this thing,” let me read, “prostate massager oh my God, Faith!”
She’s doubled up with laughter… Alright, I guess it’s kind of funny but, still, not.
“You should see your face, Buffy. You’re so red…”
“Make fun of me. I’ll make you pay for that.”
“Mmmm, will you be using… this?”
She really does enjoy herself, teasing me, now showing me the handcuffs… And God she’s so sexy when she looks at me that way.
“I don’t need this.” I can’t resist her. I love pulling her to me hard like that. Her body against mine. Our lips locking on each other. And I hear myself moan… I can feel my entire body react and I know I’m holding her tight, too tightly. I wish I would let her go but I can’t. When we’re so close I never can let her go and she knows it, and she uses it. She just pulls herself so hard like she’s trying to enter my body. If I wasn’t a slayer I wouldn’t be able to stand still so much she’s pushing herself into me…. And I like that so much. It turns me on like nothing in the world does….
Oh no, pulling away now… It’s ok, I let her do cause I see it in her eyes it’s only for more.
Wow, she’s so wild sometimes, she just wiped away everything that was on the bed, in one sharp movement and… that look. She should be the slayer. I swear the way she’s looking at me now, it’s, I swear I feel like she’s looking at me the way I feel when I slay or when I… hum, slay her. Feels untamed. Well, I guess I don’t only feel that way but also probably look that way too when I’m in slayer mode. The way she’s looking at me now. There’s this primal gleam in her eyes and I… God I’m ashamed but I feel my nipples hardening and it starts to ache down there. I want her to take me so bad right now….
Wow, I usually do that. I want to make love with her. I want to feel- ole! Yes, that’s exactly what I wanted to feel. Her, on top of me. She just pushed me down to the bed and within a second she was on top already…
“Still feeling bad about it, B?”
“Extremely… You’re gonna have to make it up to me… real hard… And maybe, maybe I’ll feel better…” Even I can hear the lust in my voice. I’m so turned on….
“I promise I’ll try my best.”
That’s too much. “Come here.” Mmm yes, her mouth, mmmm… I love that feeling...
My fingers slip on her back. She slides against my body. Mmm “Faith”
I don’t even remember getting naked, getting under the sheets. It’s like we were both caught in a swirl of desire…
And I just didn’t react to anything else. Didn’t think of anything else until now. She and I, our bodies sliding against each other, slowly now, far less wild but no less good… More… loving.
She kisses my neck; her breathing is so erratic against my skin. My nipples harden again at the feeling of it. Yes, kiss me please. “Mmmm” She moaned in my mouth.
It seems like it’s been forever since we've felt this close. Since we’ve been so slow, so enjoying the softness, the quiet, the time… Having the time to feel each other…
I’m getting closer and closer and yet I still don’t come. Every time I think I’m at the edge she pushes me further and I do the same for her…
We’re covered in sweat now… God, yes, I think this time.. Oh yes, definitely. She's fastened the movement. God the friction becomes, oh God, God..
“Buffy,”
Yes she’s close too.
“God, Faith. Don’t stop.”
“Hold me, God,”
Oh God!!!
I’m flying. If it wasn’t for her I’d be so limp, so out of the world right now but I’m holding her tightly… Yes, yes she’s coming too.
Yes, I love when she squeezes my head and my nape like that. Like I’m the only thing left in the world… I couldn’t feel better than just right now, right here, with her… I wish I could only feel that… Wish…
Mmm, what? Oh yes, Boston. I think I fell asleep. We fell asleep. I can feel her close to me. I think I was still holding her when I woke up. I’m on my back now. She’s moving. Maybe I woke her up when I moved.
“Faith?”
“Mmm yeah?”
I smile. Let me see you. Beautiful. So beautiful.
“Mmm,” She likes it when I twist her hair that way, slightly rubbing her skull… And caressing her face too.
She opens her eyes finally. I could drown, willingly, in her stare. She smiles at me.
“It was good.”
I can’t disagree with her on that.. I wish that every moment was just like now; when I don’t have any doubt that she’s the only one I wanna be with. That it’s all worth it…
But I know that once we’ll be back there, it’ll all be… different… Harder.
“What’s wrong?”
“Oh err, nothing... I was just thinking that… I like it here. Wish we could just stay... I mean I know it’s crazy bu-“
“No, it’s not… We could if you really want to.”
“Faith, you know we can’t.”
“Why? No I’m serious, what on earth could really stop us from doing what we want?”
I wish it were that simple. I don’t like when she talks like that. She doesn’t see. She doesn’t think with anything else but… her heart. I don’t wanna hurt her, but we can’t think like that. I know I can’t.
“Sss, let’s not think about this... We’re here now, aren’t we?”
She pulls me to her. I guess she agrees then. Her lips, so thin, so tender, her tongue so soft, so warm.
“Mmmm” Damn I’m moaning already and she barely touched my breasts. Oh no, she pulls away.
“B?”
“Yes.” She has her bad-idea face on.
“Err, nothing.”
That’s surprising. She’s not one to shy away usually. I should be scared, right?
“You have a ‘something’ face.”
“Yeah, well... I was thinking… I mean, don’t get the wrong idea, I didn’t have this in my mind when I got us here. It was just ‘a safe place to spend the night’ you know.”
What is she gonna say?
“And, well, I was thinking now that… I mean since we’re here, with all these toys around… Maybe we could… try some?”
I don’t really know what I look like right now but that mustn’t be pretty.
“Err, hum, well, I don’t know.. Err, like what?”
“Well, actually,”
She DOES have something in mind.
“I’d like to, you know, err, this,”
Ok, let me turn around to see what she’s pointing out and oh my God! I can’t look at her anymore now. I must look like a red street light.
“Buffy? Buffy?”
Gotta face her one day, huh? Yeah, right, laugh at my blushing. It’s not my fault I blush like that.
“Sorry. I’m not laughing. I mean, I stop now, see? ... So, what do you say?”
“I-I,” I think I lost my ability to speak somewhere between the dildos and the harness on the wall.
“We could try it, if you don’t like it we just stop.”
“So, that would be you doing it to me, then.”
“Oh yes. I mean, well, that’s what I had in mind. I’d like to do this with you, to you, with you. If it’s ok with you?”
Her smile is so sweet. I must say… The idea of it turns me on just a little, in a really anxious, twisted kind of way, but err, she seems so… I want to make her happy…
“I guess, we could try.”
“Really?”
“Yes,” I love when her eyes shine like that; when she feels good. I wanna make her feel good. I hate seeing her unhappy. And she looks pretty happy right now. She gets up, oh my God, she grabbed one of the boxes. Now I remember why she’s happy and, well *gulp* now.
“I think this one should do. It’s one of the most expensive so it should be good, right?
“You’re asking me that?”
She smiles at me. And the box is opened already. Wow, and re-wow,
“It’s pretty big, don’t you think?” Am I chickening out already?
“Well it’s detachable so I think maybe we can put another one like, let me see,”
I can’t help but feeling embarrassed at the situation, seeing her touching, weighing and choosing among the dildos on the shelf with the strap on in hand. Oh damn, she picked one.
“This one is thinner, is it alright for you?”
Still much bigger than her fingers, even two of them, and longer too...
I can see how much she wants to do it though, “Yes, I think this one is ok.”
“Cool. Damn, now I have to figure out how this goes on me.”
“I really can’t help you.” And this is so true. I feel slightly ‘paralyzed’ right now. I’m sitting on the bed, holding my knees between my arms and looking at her putting the harness on, in various ways and I can’t even move to help her. Oh my God it’s on, she did it.
“You’re ok, Buffy?”
She kneels in front of me and…
“Hey, what you’re laughing at, B?!”
I think I feel much better now in fact, “I’m sorry, Faith, but it’s just… too weird to see you with that.”
Good, she’s not too offended because she laughs too.
“Yeah I kinda feel… wicked stupid with that… But I’d still like… if you’d still.”
Ok, serious face on again.
“I-, I said yes, didn’t I?”
She pulls my chin up.
“Because you said yes earlier doesn’t mean you still want it now. And I don’t want you to do anything you don’t want alright?”
When she says things like that, I just wanna kiss her and then leave with her, very far away from everything and everyone.
She kisses me.
“I want it, Faith. With you I want everything.”
I think she liked my answer. Mmm, I can feel her hand caressing my thigh, parting my knees, getting closer to, oh yes, there. It feels good. Mmm, rubbing me. Kissing me now...
“Lie down.” She whispers in my ear…. I obey…
